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Thursday, June 10, 2010

Tough

I'll tell you something: it's tough being a teenager. Especially one with morals. You want to be in but not of. How do you make the right decision? How do you deal with those who seem to think you're odd or out there because of what you believe to be true? How do you say no when it seems impossible, when there's easier options? How do you get over the fact that people around you have different priorities?

Sometimes I enjoy being the voice of reason, because I'm the one with the truth. But that's tough, too. Even when you know you're right, and that they need to hear this, you continue to doubt yourself, wondering if they even care or if any of it is sinking in.

They treat you differently, and you're torn between wanting it and wishing it away.

You want to fit, but know that you never completely can.

Leaving things your heart knows are wrong tears it apart sometimes.

I might sound hopeless, but I know it isn't. There's a point to it all...getting there is tough. *sigh* Sometimes I just wish things were simpler.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I may not be a teenager any more...but I quickly "went there" as I read this, and found myself in tears. I have NO doubt you will discover "it" is worth every moment of the tough moments. And your heart will mend into that which is stronger. Truly. No doubt. Stay the course, dear one.

hockettfam said...

Elyse,
I love your thoughts! You are a truly beautiful young lady! It's funny but even as an adult it is tough. I will say it does get easier and easier as I see the Lord's faithfulness time and time again. He has taken me "places" I never dreamed possible.
Here's to choosing to follow no matter how bumpy the road the gets or how much our flesh cries for acceptance and validation.

Elyse said...

Thanks so much for your response. I really appreciate the lovely compliments.

Relyn said...

Oh, sweetie. I wish I had a good answer for you. I don't, though. Well. That's not really true. What I mean to say is that I wish I had a way to make it easier. I don't. But, I think I do have an answer. It's this:

Love Jesus more. Not that you don't love Him enough already. Not that you don't love Him more each day. Just that the only answer is to love Him more and more each day. Passionately, fully, deeply, until serving Him is the only clear path before you. I don't know if I am making what is in my heart clear enough, but I am absolutely sure that the answer to most of our problems in this world is simple:

Love Jesus More.

Elyse said...

Thanks, Relyn. :)